shock ~ an unpleasant or disappointing surprise
We have all most likely had moments of shock or something that is shocking. Something that takes your breath away or seems to take all of the air out of the room. It can leave you rattled, unsettled or unsteady. Maybe there’s a moment that you want to escape and pretend the moment that brought the shock didn’t really happen.
For me, the emotion of being with my mom as she took her last breath four years ago was a shock, it was shocking and put me in a state of numbing shock and unbelief. How could my mom be gone and what would life without her be like?
Four years later, life has not been the same. So many memories, so many times I want to call her on the phone for input or advice. So much loss and emptiness and so much regret. Life doesn’t seem the same without her and I wonder if it ever will. Honestly, I know the answer to that and it’s no. Life will always be different for me, my brother, and especially my dad.
She was a little lady, but mighty in word and deed. She impacted many lives and she lived a simple but special life. I miss her every single day.
Much like Jack from This is Us, I don’t have a mom anymore (here on earth), but I know whom she believed and I know she now sees him face to face. I will see her again of this I am certain.
Blessing to you ~ Carrie
Linking up with Anita Ojeda for #write28days.
Kym @ A Fresh Cup of Coffee says
Thankful for the hope and certainty of heaven that carries us through times of grief and loss. Thank you for sharing.
Anita Ojeda says
🥰, your mom sounds like a very special person. I’m so sorry for your loss. As my parents age, I’m reminded of the importance of enjoying their friendship and the special bond we share.
Gayl says
Carrie, I know how you feel. When my mom died in 2016, it took months before I was able to cry. I tried to be strong and so many times I wanted to pick up the phone and call her, then remembered I couldn’t. Then when we lost our son in 2019, that was another very hard time and still is. We miss our loved ones, yet we know they now see the face of Jesus and there is no more pain. So, even while we are sad that their presence is no longer with us, we can rejoice that they are free and we will see them again. Amen. Blessings to you!