The fact is I’ve missed a few days of the #write28days. Sometimes the pressure to write is real, but the fact remains I didn’t really plan it all out ahead of time. But at the end of the day, I’m just happy to have my fingers on the keyboard and be here as much as I have this month.
fact ~ a thing that is known or proved to be true
Some of my facts – I’m working my way back to a place in life I haven’t been to in quite a while. What does that look like? Like this…
- I am making my food choices a priority.
- I am making exercise both weights and cardio a priority.
- I am working on removing toxins from our home.
- I am purchasing (most of my) clothing from ThredUp to do my part of not participating in the fast fashion cycle.
- I made a commitment to reading the entire Bible this year. Thank you, The Bible Recap!
- Get plugged into a church and a church family.
- Reading books and listening to audiobooks.
- Listening to sermons and podcasts that point me to the Lord.
- Visiting with a Biblical counselor to work through the grief upon grief that has encompassed my life for the last 4-5 years.
- I am in the process of purchasing a sewing machine. Once I have that completed, I plan to participate in Dress a Girl Around the World at our church.
- I am still committed to assisting with my Dad’s care, but I realize I cannot do it.
Through all of these changes, I have begun to see and feel the heaviness of life lift off of me a bit. Hope has been renewed in my heart, mind, and life. That doesn’t mean I won’t have hard days, especially when there are people in my life who like to gaslight me. Recognizing it and talking it through is helping me not allow that to control and sidetrack me. It’s impossible to control people and situations, but I can control how I respond, and that change brings hope!
The fact is I’m hopeful and that hasn’t happened it a very long time!
Blessings to you ~ Carrie
jodie says
I always love how you are so open in your struggles Carrie.
We think we should be able to do it all, but that’s silly, right? I’m the same way. I have a list of things I wanted to get done this weekend, but I chose to spend time with my neighbors instead.
XOOX
Jodie
http://www.jtouchofstyle.com
Carrie says
Thank you, Jodie! It helps me heal and I always hope it may in some little way help someone else. xoxo
Leslie Susan Clingan says
My sweet friend. When I discovered you were doing Write28, I almost committed to doing it, too. But I just know I can’t follow through. There is always something that interferes with my day. I am thinking you are still in Texas but not sure. Going to go back through your Write28 posts to see what I can decipher. I am thankful for the church we have found. And the fact that you are looking for a church home makes me think maybe you aren’t in Denton anymore. Maybe with your dad instead? There are Sundays (yesterday) that even though we like our church very much, we just need a Sunday morning at home.
Carrie says
Hi friend! We are in Texas and back in Denton. We have found a church and are beginning to get plugged in. I am beginning to feel some solid ground under my feet and working to get back into living life. Dad is here in an assisted care facility. It’s good to have him close. xoxo
Anita Ojeda says
I’m so glad you’re finding the help and support you need to help you find balance in your life! May the Holy Spirit draw close to you as you strive to draw closer to God.
Carrie says
Thank you, Anita! The Lord is at work and I feel incredibly blessed by his care. This writing challenge is a piece of my healing. Thank you for hosting!
Jill says
I was so glad to read your current posts, Carrie. I can relate to you in so many ways. I lost my father recently and am struggling with the care of my mother. I also feel like I have been walking through, as you put it, “grief upon grief” for the past few years. That being said, I want to thank you for sharing your struggles. You’re words and transparency are such a comfort to me. Praying God’s richest blessings and peace to you.
Carrie says
Hi Jill! Thank you for reading this post. I’m so blessed to know it spoke to you. We need one another to carry each other’s burdens and be the salve of healing with our words. It is always my hope that my posts do this in some way. Thank you for words – they blessed me.